Its been a long while since I blogged, I wonder why. Maybe it has to do with the fact that school ended and i went back home, I tend to get lazy when I am there. So now I have to explain everything that has been happening in my life. Like the fact that i moved cities, well cities is an understatement. I moved across the ocean, I am in England now!! Yes you heard right, England. The land of the British or is it the Queen, whichever point is I am here. It has been a long 3 and something weeks. On paper it sounds so short but trust me a lot has happened. My new school or should I say University is in Leicester, a small town in England. I am still studying Economics so that has not changed. But so many things have, for example it is colder here, more strangers here. Okay that last bit didn't make sense but you catch my drift, I am living in a foreign land. I had to start over, make new friends, get accustomed to the people here, their ways, their accent, the list goes on. I will be lying if I said it hasn't been difficult, sometimes I just lay in bed and think about what i would be doing if I was back home, how things would be different but i don't dwell on it much after all I am in EUROPE! It is still a bit surreal to me but I will get the hang of it. Today was my first table tennis game, I lost miserably but I wasn't surprised. I haven't played in years and even then I was never that good. I had fun though, lots of it. I am now in the Economics society, Creative Writing Society and 2 others I am too tired to mention. It just occurred to me that this is my first entry where I wrote about my real life, not good. Must stop. Why am i here today, I just realised that I love attention more like crave it. Okay fine I didn't just realise it now but I never thought it was an issue until today. I want someone to wait on me hand and foot, to text me all day, tell me I am beautiful every minute. Basically I just need someone to acknowledge my presence. It is selfish and disgusting and I do not know where I picked it up but it is definitely not one of my best traits. When I don't get the attention that I so dearly crave I react. You know in Physics when they say for every action there is a reaction? Well it is sort of like that with me. For every attention that I seek from a particular person that I don't get I react. And trust me you do not want to see my reaction. It usually leads to bad stuff happening, gosh I hope I don't react this time around. What are your vices? Drop them in the comment box, make me feel better about mine I beg you!!
Ever since I started my second year of University I feel like my brain cells have dramatically reduced in population. Everything is just so much more complicated and demanding and concepts are harder to grasp!! I know, I know, school is supposed to get more difficult with every increasing year but it still sucks!! I mean who came up with that logic anyway. Who came up with 'the recipe of success is hardwork'? I would really love to meet that person and give him/her a mouthful. Why couldn't life be simple? Why couldn't people be given the choice to do what they want and how they want it? For example, why can't I just wake up one day and say 'I wanna be a billionaire' and boom! the money appears? Why do I have to slave our away my whole entire life just for a few years of satisfaction? Let's just think about this for a minute. You spend 12 years of mandatory school and then 3-6 years of university depending on your chosen degree. We are now up to 15-18 ...
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ReplyDeleteBathong, I was so dramatic!
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