Its been a long while since I blogged, I wonder why. Maybe it has to do with the fact that school ended and i went back home, I tend to get lazy when I am there. So now I have to explain everything that has been happening in my life. Like the fact that i moved cities, well cities is an understatement. I moved across the ocean, I am in England now!! Yes you heard right, England. The land of the British or is it the Queen, whichever point is I am here. It has been a long 3 and something weeks. On paper it sounds so short but trust me a lot has happened. My new school or should I say University is in Leicester, a small town in England. I am still studying Economics so that has not changed. But so many things have, for example it is colder here, more strangers here. Okay that last bit didn't make sense but you catch my drift, I am living in a foreign land. I had to start over, make new friends, get accustomed to the people here, their ways, their accent, the list goes on. I will be lying if I said it hasn't been difficult, sometimes I just lay in bed and think about what i would be doing if I was back home, how things would be different but i don't dwell on it much after all I am in EUROPE! It is still a bit surreal to me but I will get the hang of it. Today was my first table tennis game, I lost miserably but I wasn't surprised. I haven't played in years and even then I was never that good. I had fun though, lots of it. I am now in the Economics society, Creative Writing Society and 2 others I am too tired to mention. It just occurred to me that this is my first entry where I wrote about my real life, not good. Must stop. Why am i here today, I just realised that I love attention more like crave it. Okay fine I didn't just realise it now but I never thought it was an issue until today. I want someone to wait on me hand and foot, to text me all day, tell me I am beautiful every minute. Basically I just need someone to acknowledge my presence. It is selfish and disgusting and I do not know where I picked it up but it is definitely not one of my best traits. When I don't get the attention that I so dearly crave I react. You know in Physics when they say for every action there is a reaction? Well it is sort of like that with me. For every attention that I seek from a particular person that I don't get I react. And trust me you do not want to see my reaction. It usually leads to bad stuff happening, gosh I hope I don't react this time around. What are your vices? Drop them in the comment box, make me feel better about mine I beg you!!
For what I am about to share to make sense, I need to give you a bit of background information. I am what my friends call an 'activity slut'. Its kind of a harsh term but completely factual. I am the kind of person who participates in literally everything that I come across, be it charity organisations, school related projects, societies, etc. If I feel like I could contribute something to any project I do it, without any hesitation. I love working with people and trying to make the lives of people around me better and being involved in all these projects gives me the opportunity to do just that. I also do it for selfish reasons, I want to leave a legacy that will live on for decades after I have left this earth. I want to be remembered by each and everyone I come in contact with. What? I am only human! But one thing I never do is get involved in anything where I am uncertain about its success. All my moves are calculated, I only take part in things I know for sure I will be...
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ReplyDeleteBathong, I was so dramatic!
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