The high of a great interview for the dream job you desperately want, that presentation you just had with the prospective client you courted for weeks or the proposal you finally sent in after moulding it into perfection. That high is followed by a great downward spiral, the wait. It’s a high for a reason. What goes up must come down. All good things must come to an end. And they do come to an end as the days go by. The first 24 hours are glorious. You are untouchable, you did the impossible, surprised even yourself. There is absolutely no way you aren’t going to be successful. Then the second day comes around and at first you are hopeful. It’s only been two days, no one makes such an important decision in just two days. By the end of the week you are a wreck. Doubts have all but clouded your mind. And your feeble mind succumbs to pressure, replaying everything over and over again, until there is nothing left to overanalyse. Did I smile too much? Or maybe I made a typo. Did I even shower that morning? What if I said the wrong thing and they were too polite to stop me? Maybe I should call them back. And you are plagued with all these negative thoughts that you start blaming yourself for being so optimistic, for having hope. Hope is for the weak after all. And finally you reach a resolve. It’s okay, you don’t need them. You are probably better off anyway. And on to the next one you go, restarting the cycle.
Ever since I started my second year of University I feel like my brain cells have dramatically reduced in population. Everything is just so much more complicated and demanding and concepts are harder to grasp!! I know, I know, school is supposed to get more difficult with every increasing year but it still sucks!! I mean who came up with that logic anyway. Who came up with 'the recipe of success is hardwork'? I would really love to meet that person and give him/her a mouthful. Why couldn't life be simple? Why couldn't people be given the choice to do what they want and how they want it? For example, why can't I just wake up one day and say 'I wanna be a billionaire' and boom! the money appears? Why do I have to slave our away my whole entire life just for a few years of satisfaction? Let's just think about this for a minute. You spend 12 years of mandatory school and then 3-6 years of university depending on your chosen degree. We are now up to 15-18 ...
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