The high of a great interview for the dream job you desperately want, that presentation you just had with the prospective client you courted for weeks or the proposal you finally sent in after moulding it into perfection. That high is followed by a great downward spiral, the wait. It’s a high for a reason. What goes up must come down. All good things must come to an end. And they do come to an end as the days go by. The first 24 hours are glorious. You are untouchable, you did the impossible, surprised even yourself. There is absolutely no way you aren’t going to be successful. Then the second day comes around and at first you are hopeful. It’s only been two days, no one makes such an important decision in just two days. By the end of the week you are a wreck. Doubts have all but clouded your mind. And your feeble mind succumbs to pressure, replaying everything over and over again, until there is nothing left to overanalyse. Did I smile too much? Or maybe I made a typo. Did I even shower that morning? What if I said the wrong thing and they were too polite to stop me? Maybe I should call them back. And you are plagued with all these negative thoughts that you start blaming yourself for being so optimistic, for having hope. Hope is for the weak after all. And finally you reach a resolve. It’s okay, you don’t need them. You are probably better off anyway. And on to the next one you go, restarting the cycle.
It's been a whole entire year and some months since I last wrote down my thoughts on here. I could lie and blame my busy life and university for my absence but I wouldn't be doing anyone justice. Truth is I got scared, I got scared of all the things going on around me that writing them down would have forced me to face them. Over the past year I have been through so much, both joy and pain, I have learnt so much, all of which I want to share 😊 Firstly, you never know how strong you are until you have to be. And this applies to everyone, YOU ARE STRONG ! It doesn't matter what you are going through, you will survive it. You just gotta have faith in yourself. Secondly we need to appreciate the people we have in our lives (friends and family). You never know when you are going to need them around you because nothing beats the support system comprised of your loved ones 💞 You know that popular Justin Bieber song, Love Yourself ? I know it has a different message to what ...
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