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Dear Lonely Girl

Dear lonely girl,
I know its hard, I know its hard to wake up every morning ready to fill your day with anything and everything that could distract you from your thoughts.
I know its hard some days to pull yourself out of bed and face the world when all you want to do is crawl back into bed, into oblivion.
I know its hard not to finish an entire ice cream tub in one sitting because you will do anything to fill that whole deep inside your heart.
I know its especially hard to resist drowning that whiskey bottle hoping against hope to find what you are looking for at the bottom of the glass.

Dear lonely girl,
I know its hard to ever feel beautiful because each and every person that ever said you were didn't think twice about leaving you behind.
I know its hard to take any compliment seriously, after all if you were that awesome, that amazing, then that one guy that you thought was the one would have never left, right?
I know its hard to believe that anyone will ever stay till the end. Why would they? Especially when your father, the one man who should have taught you love, true love never bothered to know you.
I know its hard to resist the temptation to sleep with that one guy who seemed nice enough to buy you a couple of drinks because any touch, any sign of warmth is surely better than going back home to your empty bed.

Dear Lonely girl,
It's hard I know, to keep drowning every single day in your endless pit of depression, desperate to call for help but not knowing who to turn to.
But I promise you that one day, one day you will wake up happy, ready to make memories.
One day you will smile and genuinely smile without fearing what could go wrong.
One day you will enjoy a drink not to escape your feelings but because it tastes good.
'Cos damn it! This can't be it, it has to get better, I promise it will get better.

Dear lonely girl,
Everyday you wake up and face the world, every day you are alive and breathing, every day you are not lying in a ditch somewhere passed out is a victory.
Enjoy the small victories and one day maybe you won't be so lonely after all.



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  1. Anonymous24 May 2017 at 15:19

    Dang how emotional. So how do I hold back my tears in public?

    Dear lonely girl they say Its always darkest before the dawn. I say reciprocity is a norm that only the altruistic understand, we live to learn to get stronger and overcome. Hurdles are meant to be jumped over if you don't they remain where they are, try jump and when you fall shake the dust off for better life awaits beyond the hurdle. xoxo!

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